I have an insurmountable & incisive need to write english & speak english o.O

I think i do have MDP )))) maniс-depressed phsychosis )))) at last ))

Now, I'm at first stage of pendulum's traectory )))))) Poor me ))))) Yesterday i wanted to die, to cry etc ))))) It was the last stage )))) now i'm full of dubious energy, want to write stupid thing, dance, love former favourites etc ) It's the first stage, again.
Damned cyclicity )))

How should i fight it, i wonder ) I've the only one way )))) That is pray & participation in Communion... 'couse i do not want to fall again into depressed hole at all. I'm so tired of myself!!! )

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